Waking Up

Have you ever gone through one of those seasons in your life where when it was ending you felt like you were waking up? That is where I am now. I don't know that this season has truly ended, that is one of the particular markers of it, but I do feel as if I am waking up. One of the indicators for me that I have been "asleep" is that I now feel as if I can look around me, see where God is at work, listen for him, ask others around me how I can serve them, etc.... This has truly been one of the most difficult seasons for me. Please hear me not as complaining. I'm not. I think a couple of weeks/days ago I would have been. However, I think for now I am past that. So, where I have been is in a place that it took me everything I had just to hang on and there wasn't much left for others. Whether that was family, friends, co-workers, neighbors, whoever. Waking up for me means that I am beginning to be able to look around me and see others needs or (shamefully enough) not duck when I become aware of another's needs. If you are one of those who I have ducked, please forgive me. I am waking up. Especially to Julie, thank you for serving me and loving me even through this. I know you have had your own hard season, yet you were stronger. I love you and am so grateful for you.--Brett